Life isn't the way I want it to be.

Then again, since when will we get what we want or expect?
Not talking about things we want to buy, but the way life is.

I've came so far. However, things are changing bit by bit.
The way I handle a problem, situation and person is different from how I use to react.
At that moment, I know that I shouldn't be reacting that way,
but the other side of me told me that I should do that or I will give that chance a miss.

A chance that I will never be able to turn back time
or even be able to see what's happening again in my life time.

Unfortunately, the aftermath resulted in a sickening feeling.

I told myself time after time that I should not live in regrets.
I must change from bad to good.
And history shouldn't be repeating itself.

Everything is happening so fast that I did not have time to think about it.
Then, I could only think of it when I've done it.
Living in regrets, most of the time.

I don't know what I'm talking about now.
Near to speechless!

Also, I hope the friendship I have with Wayne will be back to normal soon.
Little did I know that small things will have a huge impact on friendships.

Gonna prepare for Beatrice's & Jon's birthday celebration tonight.
Toddles!